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My poor Bruised Ego…


I had to silence my Ego to be able to start writing this blog.
I had to make myself totally vulnerable.
Here my Soul is on display…
Here is my complete story…
Here is my complete truth…
My bare naked Soul.
I had to completely quieten my Ego to do this.
That required a lot of effort on my part.

My whole life I hid behind an illusion…an illusion my Ego created for me…to keep me comfortable.
Ego will go through great lengths to protect us…even if it makes us live in denial…and I did.

I allowed another human to hurt my Ego and I stayed with him waiting for him to correct it…waiting for him to make my Ego feel better.
My Ego was NOT going to be hurt or damaged.
My Ego refused to acknowledge the truth.

All my life my Ego made up a story to keep me comfortable.

If I had a balanced between my spirit and Ego I would have left at the first sign of discomfort…I didn’t.
My Ego had convinced me it was not possible for me to get abused.
I was totally convinced.
It took me to get to rock bottom of the abuse for my spirit to kick in and rescue me.

That destroyed the illusion I was living in.
My illusion was now shattered.
I had to now deal with my reality.
I had to silence my Ego to save myself…and she was kicking and screaming.

Finally…Hallelujah…I was able to get to a place where I could completely remove the painful emotions of my experience and just tell my story…my truth.

This is a test for me.
I had to silence my Ego.
I can no longer operate from my Ego.
This is my true self being vulnerable in public

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14 thoughts on “My poor Bruised Ego…”

  1. bravo,i am sure your true self is your source of power.far from vulnerable.and more respectable and lovable.

  3. This will be great for people to hear especially those who have been in a situation like this! There are many out there that have been or are in. And don’t know it! Bless you for doing this and I’m so happy your in a better spot!!!! I love you and you deserve better!!!!

    1. Thank you Love and yes we all deserve better…Its been an eventful journey for me…. a looong lesson of a lifetime.
      kisses xoxoxoxo

  4. This is a great thing for you and others. There are so many out there that have been or are in this sort of situation. I’m so happy that you are in a better part of life than you were. It’s been a struggle and this can help those that are in the same situation. Bless you. I love you

  5. Amen! Great insight. Made me think about how often I allowed my ego to lead me down a wrong path, away from something or someone who would have been good for me.

    1. Thank you Andrea…our Egos effect us while making good or bad decisions xoxoxo

  6. Paula!!!! 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽❤️ WOW, what insight you put into your blog to show the growth that you’ve made and how you began to turn a bad situation into a lesson learned through a bruised ego!! Powerful. I hope you’re writing more because I felt like I was at the edge of my seat and ready to identify how my ego allowed me to venture into abusive relationships, too. Well done!!!! 😍

  7. What Growth revelations here, Paula! Thank you for sharing and helping us all dial inwards to our own struggles.
    The competition between our Ego and Essence is truly our life’s work — on going, ever-evolving.

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