In Loving Memory of Robbie
Died too young.
Missed every second of every day.
I met Robbie at the Harrison gym when we were both 28 and we have been in each other’s life for almost 28 years .
Robbie and I had a very unique bond…that most people could not understand.
Ironically our bond grew after we got divorced.
We were not meant to be husband and wife…we were meant to be much more than that.
We were in each other’s lives for a much bigger reason.
We were going to be each other’s Angels and help each other through a very difficult time.
He was there for me during and after a very ugly relationship I got myself into after our divorce and for that I am eternally grateful to him and he knows that.
He would spend hours on the phone with me just to make sure I was ok.
He was there for me when I needed a friend and helped me through a very dark time.
When he told me he was diagnosed with Cancer in July of 2017…I did not think twice about helping him with anything he needed.
Robbie was confident I would love and care for him always.
Robbie did not say many heartfelt meaningful things to me…but what he did say I held on to.
Here is some of what he wrote in a letter to me before his last trip to Thailand.
He said…
The level of comfort and love that I have with you I doubt I will ever experience with someone else.
And I am just so appreciative of the care I receive from u.
You know how I like certainty in my life. So this level of uncertainty and confusion is overwhelming. Not knowing if I will even be alive in 5 years. Where to go and what to do.
I feel safe here now with you. So leaving that is a hard thing to do. To jump into uncertainty, To go somewhere to either be alone or to be with someone who could never have the care for me that I get from u, even on ur worst day.
He told me I was his softest place to land and he was grateful to be able to lean on me.
I found out more about what I meant to him from his friends from Thailand in the last week…. apparently he talked a lot about me.
I have beautiful memories with Robbie…in my mind, my heart and in pictures.
We took a lot of amazing trips together and he was always insistent on us doing as much as we could while we were young.
I am glad and grateful we did.
2 Saturdays ago he waited for me to leave the country to die.
I could feel he was struggling to keep alive till I left.
He knew I would not have been able to handle seeing him die…and he was right.
His cared enough for me to spare me that pain.
Every day was a struggle to see my Robbie lose his battle with Cancer.
I am completely heart broken to lose my friend.
He was so brave and optimistic the entire time untill the last 3 months.
Cancer took my friend away from me and robbed him of his life.
I miss my Robbie.
Now he can breathe easy in Heaven.
Rest in peace my love.
I will see you again…
