‘Icky’ feelings are there for a reason…
Took me over 53 years to recognize ‘icky’ feelings as red flag indicators.
Took a lot of reparenting work to unlearn, re-adjust and undo the damage caused by my faulty childhood programming to get me there.
I realized later I could not recognize or interpret those icky feelings correctly as fear or anxiety…I just found it a ‘familiar’ feeling and went with it.
People who made me feel the ick felt normal in my world.
I just had to work harder to make them feel better about themselves.
Until that ‘ignored’ familiar feeling that turned out to be FEAR within me made me lose 30 lbs, had my hair falling out in bunches, projectile vomiting every morning and developed an autoimmune disorder of my skin.
Yup…took me until all THAT happened to even recognize those ‘icky’ feelings correctly as red flags indicators.
Those icky feelings are there for a reason…they are your intuition knocking at your door letting you know something is wrong.
***What you ignore mentally will eventually show up in your physical form***
Children from Narcissistic upbringing are unable to distinguish strong feelings correctly…because their first strong feelings of fear, anxiety, uncertainty and unsafety were introduced to them by a person who was supposed to love and protect them.
So ‘strong’ feelings are all muddled up…is this fear…or is this love???
Plus they were not ‘allowed’ to have or express feelings and emotions freely or EVER.
Only ONE person was allowed to have feelings and emotions…and THAT person wasn’t YOU!
THIS is pure Hell to an emotionally led person!
The Narcissistic person in your life keeps you hypervigilant and hyperfocused on them and disregards you as a person.
I still meet those kind of people…but now I can recognize and call out an icky personality type.
Better late at 53 than NEVER is what I say ✌️
