Living My New Reality
Some thoughts, feelings and memories are a Haunting Hell...more so if you are the one who created that Hell.If you are not careful you may get yourself trapped in the same cage you intended to trap someone else.A guilty conscience is like jail time...it's a mental prison...and sometimes it is just as bad if not worse than real jail time.You
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My little twin comes running to me...distressed...Miss Ryna Miss Ryna (It's a battle I have graciously accepted) Zeeboo is copying me...I said...that is wonderful...she wants to be just like you.She looked confused...then smiled.Copying....It's the highest form of flattery.If they copy or imitate you it means they value what they are copying. It means they actually admire what you are doing/saying/wearing...whatever
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By the time you realize that you are entangeling with narcissists...you are already a lifetime and knee-deep in crap...head first.That last narcissist might quite possibly be my life saver.Ironic? ...VERY!He woke me the fuck up by putting me through a very painfully harsh experience.Sending blessings out to that precious memory!It was my 'near death experience'....my WHOLE life flashed before my
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Most people who know me don't know me at all.I have a handful of people who can say they know me well enough to say they know me...and vice-versa...perhaps some through osmosis...and now one of them is dead.That does not include ANY family members. The rest of the people...ONLY know my name...including family members. I know this by the questions
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There are no victims, only volunteers” — meaning that when you tolerate unacceptable behavior, you volunteer for it.Once you set proper boundaries and learn to identify abusive patterns you can choose to walk away.Verbal, emotional and psychological abuse leaves no visible scars...it is the worse kind of abuse...just horrendous memories etched in one's mind.The first step for me to stop
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Some people spend their whole life...days, weeks, months, years, decades...where NO ONE asks them...are you ok?Not EVERYONE have people in their lives. We can get used to ANYTHING...We can get used to eating with no teeth...chomping on gums.Would we prefer teeth...sure...but gums is all we have...so we make do.I think Covid made us all experience this to a certain extent.
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Avoidant...Commitment phobe...or Narcissistic...It doesn't matter...the end result is still the same.What you allow...will continue. When you enter into a relationship with a narcissistic person, commitment phobe or an avoidant person, all your green flags will look like red flags to them.If you are attentive and show interest they will see it as being needy.If you show them that you would
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I met a very 'interesting' person...on my trip...well he thought he was interesting.I did not...I find EVERYONE informative.He was in a group of men...a fraternity of 5 from somewhere. I met them on my last day there.As I was walking to the beach...he had to say something...It was a cute exchange...Just flirtatious...Later on I met them at breakfast...Of course he
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Sometimes, bad stuff happens for you to recognize and appreciate the good.'I led a pretty charmed life'I was determined to make it charmed...It wasn't at all charmed...But I pretended it was...because I wanted it to be that.I think we ALL do that to some extent.We can tend to ignore reality and pretend EVERYTHING is 'good.' I know I did....I made
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WNAAD...June 1st is World Narcissistic Abuse Awareness Day.For me, this day is particularly poignant and significant. WNAAD was established in 2016...the same year that I found out that I was involved in such an experience. I started writing in support forums in 2017...when I was spinning in the tornado...right from the center of Hell...now I share my story and my
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