Living My New Reality
What's your job description...Still allowing the same wishywashy/indecisive/ boundary pushing/toxic/ dismissive avoidant/ noncommittal/narcissistic/ abusive person or persons waltz in and out of your life or make you relive the same old story over and over.Still falling for their 'but I love/care/I would never' non verbal or verbal sentiment after doing some foul shit...repetitively. Most times without even an apology. Listen
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'Icky' feelings are there for a reason...Took me over 53 years to recognize 'icky' feelings as red flag indicators.Took a lot of reparenting work to unlearn, re-adjust and undo the damage caused by my faulty childhood programming to get me there.I realized later I could not recognize or interpret those icky feelings correctly as fear or anxiety...I just found it
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Betrayal....By definition....Betrayal is the act of breaking trust or confidence, or being disloyal to someone. It can also refer to the feeling of being harmed by someone's actions.Betrayal is NEVER an act from strangers...Betrayal is ALWAYS an act from someone you know, care about or love.If they were strangers you wouldn't give 2 shits.If you feel betrayed by a person
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The Destination....I walked hand in hand with the Devil through the fires of Hell...discarded him at his own home and walked back out with a few inevitable burns that ultimately healed to scars...relatively "uncharred"...but just enough to have an incredulous story to share.I couldn't have done that without a lot of help...An Angel holding my other hand guided me back
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Paradox....Is love what you feel inside yourself or do you ONLY feel love when someone else shows or tells you they love you...My point of view...Love is a verb...It's an action...You may not feel love solely by words...but you will feel completely loved when someone shows you love...Words have to match actions for best results.And here's the paradox...You can only
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A Valentine's Day nugget to protect your Beautiful Heart❤️People pick partners based on their needs at the time...Some people's needs are superficially based and some are not.So if your 'needs' are motivated by social standing, sex, money, housing, looks, cars, prestige or power you will pick a partner based on that superficial stuff.(Whether you are willing to admit it or
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Dear God...Please don't let me be alone🙏I think most of us have prayed this prayer at some point in our lives.One thing to pray for 'company'....quite another thing to think your prayers have been answered by the next person who shows up...without vetting their intentions out.Being afraid to be alone is the reason you form toxic bonds for the wrong
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Not your Monkey🐒When a man starts getting 'over familiar' after 1 or 2 days of texting or meeting up...or starts calling you 'my lady'...'my woman' etc or starts making other 'possessive' remarks...or future faking fancy trips to exotic places(yes they do that😅) or worse...pushing a sexual agenda on you prematurely 🤔😠Love you long time...ALREADY? 🙃😉😂1st...ALL THAT ⏫️are BIG RED FLAGS
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Proximity...Talk about being forced to start at square one...In the last decade...most EVERYONE 'familiar' in my life disappeared.Family, friends, husband...all gone.Some by their choice and some by mine...some by death.Some are barely 'alive'...perhaps just because I frequently resuscitation the relationships.But I also realized those were ALWAYS barely 'alive'...I just hadn't paid attention...because I believed we were in some form of
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NOW....Now is ALL we got...I learned that the hard way through osmosis from Robbie's life experience. He didn't want to celebrate birthdays, holidays or any days.I wrote a post about that...but that's the way that cookie crumbles. I've experienced many of those kind of people...but you already know that.As life lessons may have it...I learned to dodge bullets from the
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